:: beHind tHe siLver fRonD ::

learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in life has a purpose.life isn’t just about giving and taking.the context is just much wider than that.go beyond the horizon and learn the magical of life beneath it.
i’ve always talk to myself that i should be honest with myself n in everything i do,not mentioning to others.it’s not that i’m braGGing or what..it’s just that that are one of the things that dad always to remind about.be true,be vibrant, but dont overdo it.huhu..sounds like he knows her daughter well hmm…why i’m telling all these?
mom’s sick but i hope it’s not going to be fatal one day.she got early stage BT which i assume it can be remove on this becoming 6th april 2007.the venue is at kuching hospital(dunno the full name,i just assuming tht tht’s the name).time,i’m not sure.so for now,mom just doing her weekly check-up and sometimes radiography.oh,thanks to Allah for letting me know bout this.when i went back for cny tht other day,we knew,me n dad that there was something fishy with mom.she told that she cant se things clearly and whats she saw was just blurry things,grey in colour.she will be fine..oh yeah,she will because she’s a bionic woman.that’s why dad loves her so much.
thankfully i have a grip on myself these days.so far,steph knew about this n i havent told anybody yet.just for the sake of my heart,thts why i told steph,and andiQue.i was a fool when i mad at him few days ago.he went to cyprus for a week.a week! no wonder laa…
when he came back,he called me up.after he sent me those annoying sms(S) with lyrics n rhyme..hehehe..he said he was sorry bout mom n told me not to cry like baby.hahaha…6 hrs later he sent a msg saying "now i’m crying.you didn’t tell me anything but after hearing your voice,i realised the pain and it makes me cry.why we didnt bla bla bla…u have to understand me.i’m crying for you"..that was just so sweet of him.huhuhu…but still,our story is like mirage.not clear,blurry,no conformation..just hopes n dreams keep on flowing and glowing all the way to the future.i don’t mind as long as it keeps me and him happy.when the right time comes,i’ll be giving up everything that i hv enough and back to the arms of the people who love me very dearly and cherish me when im there with them.i dont mind making mistakes bcos i learnt something from it.experiences is the best teacher right?

~ by frontier on March 11, 2007.